My Walk With God
My Walk With God
Hey y’all! Welcome back to the “3C Blog.” I just want to start off by saying thank you! Thank you to everyone who read my very first blog post, commented, liked and shared it on social media. It truly means the world to me! It has allowed me (and encouraged me) to continue making blog posts. So let’s dive into 3C Blog Post #2.
In all honesty, this blog post was initially going to be about something entirely different than the story behind my walk with God. I’m sure some of you might read the title and be tempted to exit out but I urge you to keep reading. Something has been stirring in me and it needs to be shared. It needs to be heard and felt. So just know, as I sit here at 8:50 PM, jamming out to Zach William’s new songs, typing this post, it comes from a place of peace, a place of comfort, and a place of deeply wanting you ALL to know God like I know God.
Without getting too heavy into details, let’s jump back to August 2017. My family and I were going through a bit of a hard time. I was struggling and I had no earthly clue where to turn. So one night, I decided to open my Bible for the first time in a long time. I started taking notes to absorb what I was reading and truthfully, it helped. I continued to read my Bible as the months went on and I finally decided it was time to get involved in the church that I had started to attend a few months back. Once I turned to God, everything started to change. God started to provide in ways I never expected. I became a member of my church, I got rebaptized, I started volunteering, I joined worship team, I made lifelong friends, college was great, family situations turned around, I was the healthiest I’d ever been, I had the coolest job; I was SO happy. It was by far one of the happiest times in my life to this day. I had a glow about me that I thought would never go away. I thought I’d never lose my relationship with God, I thought that things would always be this easy forever. It never dawned on me that just like the seasons of the weather change, so do our seasons in life. Circumstances changed and long story short, I ended up at a job I hated, family matters got difficult again, and I no longer felt like happy Camryn. I had no clue what to do.
The end of 2018 through early 2019 were rough months. I should add that I’ve been in difficult seasons of my life,previously, where I did not choose God. I chose worldly things and I only found misery, heartbreak, and hurt. I promised myself I’d never do that again. With that being said, when I didn’t know where to turn, I knew I had to turn to God. It was HARD. I had to FIGHT for that relationship. (I still have to fight for it daily and some days are much harder than others and vice versa.) I had to fight because the devil was trying so hard to push me away from God. I didn’t want to pray, I felt anxiety, I felt hopeless; like I didn’t know or have a purpose in life. But when I felt all those things, I KNEW that was when I NEEDED to pray the hardest, I needed to cling to God and hold on for dear life. What I didn’t realize at the time was that God was performing miracles. Just because I couldn’t see or feel what He was doing did not mean that He wasn’t up to something. I saw God perform miracles that I had only heard of or read about, I heard and felt God speak to me about family issues, about health issues, about all these things that I had been worrying about. I can 100% say, I am still sitting here, watching God work in ways I never thought possible.
Let’s jump to present day Camryn. I called my mom the other night and our conversation started out how it would any other day. About an hour or so into our phone call, I finally confessed that I have felt broken. Completely lost and sad and I’ve had no clue why. It comes and goes. Somedays are great and other days, I really struggle. I didn’t get it. I just started my online store a month ago; something I have wanted for so long. Business has been so great. I should be so happy, right? Not even close. What I didn’t realize is that I am the one choosing my unhappiness. My worry, my stress, that’s on me. There’s been days when I’m driving to work in tears and have no clue why. So I want to let y’all in on some key factors that have helped me overcome this state of unhappiness. My hope is that if you are in the same position I was in, these tips will help you reconnect with God and yourself for a much happier, stress-free life.
My biggest downfall is that I am really good at isolating myself. It’s not that I intend to isolate myself, I just get so caught up in work and all the things that I have to get done. I work from 8 to 5, workout, go home, eat dinner, work, go to bed and do it all over again the next day. I’m isolated. I don’t generally see anyone after work besides my dog. But the thing is, God intended for us to have human connection and human interaction! We literally cannot live without it. So get involved. Get involved at your church, go to that workout class you’ve been wanting to try, go work at your fav coffee shop, go play on that volleyball league even though you’re really bad at Volleyball and you’d rather stay home. I can’t say it enough. Get outside of your comfort zone!
You like reading? Cool. Go to your local coffee shop and read a book or snuggle up at home in front of your electric fireplace with a cup of coffee and your book. (Obviously, we really like coffee around here and electric fireplaces. I mean, who doesn’t like to be warm and cozy… Just sayin’) Do you like working out? That’s great! Push yourself to wake up early and get a workout in! You’ll be so glad you did. For me, I didn’t realize how much I enjoyed writing until I started this blog. It is an amazing stress-reliever for me! It brings me so much joy. I love being able to put on music and just write. Therefore, that probably means that I need to do more of it! Dig down deep and think about the things you enjoy the most! What brings you joy, what lights your fire? Figure it out and do that!
This may seem obvious but how many of us can truly say we do this daily? I sure can’t. We get so caught up in our lives, our jobs; how busy we are that we don’t even stop to think that maybe getting a little Jesus time might help. Studying God’s Word opens up a gateway for us to declare His Word despite what we are going through. It makes us stronger when the enemy tries to attack. My favorite thing to do is listen to a Christian podcast while I am getting ready for work in the mornings. I feel like I am ready to start my day when I start it like that. My new favorite Podcast to listen to is Craig Groeschelat Life Church. (Just in case you were wondering.) Getting the Word in looks different for everyone. Maybe it’s turning on your favorite worship music. My favorite Christian artist is Zach Williams. (Go listen to his song “Chainbreaker,” it is so beautiful and so moving.) Maybe you can start waking up an hour earlier to read and study The Bible. Do a devotional. Whatever this looks like for you, just know, you can’t get it wrong.
God sees you; He knows what you’re going through, and He wants to be your salvation. I just want each and every one of you reading this to know, God is after your heart. Even when you feel far away from Him, He’s there. His Grace is new every single morning. Even when you feel like you are completely unworthy, just remember, you are NEVER unworthy in the eyes of your Heavenly Creator. When you feel stressed or too tired to pray, PRAY ANYWAYS. Praise Him in the hard times. The enemy genuinely WANTS to separate you from God. So fight that battle every single day. I just want to leave y’all with this: “Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.” -Romans 12:12